HOOKER LIFE HACK #9: BEWARE OF THE TRUTH ABOUT YOUR LIFE

I like fake friends as long as I know they are fake.

I do not mind spending time with fake friends. It is important to know that they are not true friends. Let me explain. By engaging in socially unacceptable behavior I did not meet people who wanted to be friends with me. My time was spent with people who were not relationship material. Now, when people find out about my past, they do not view me as friendship material. So I am very much alone. It is easy to get too excited about new people, hoping to establish connections. But I am not skilled at attracting and keeping people. Inevitably people exit. Sometimes I do not know why. Heartbreak follows. It is better for me to have people around me who are using me, say, for an apartment to use to get out of the elements. I do not get my hopes up. Plus, I have some temporary companionship so I don’t end up developing strange habits the way people do when they are alone a lot.

With Fakes, There is no Heartache

  • When it comes to having someone around or living in utter isolation, someone is better than no one, in my experience. One thing I miss about being on the street everyday was the constant flow of new people through my life. It was fun to meet people from all walks of life with their varied life stories. People often incorrectly assume that any dates I picked up in downtown Honolulu were lowlifes. I visited some of the wealthiest areas on Oahu, like Blackpoint–an area of gated ccommunity of small mansions on cliffs that overlook the Pacific Ocean. I miss the daily adventure that distracted me from the lack of meaningful connections in my life. Now my reality is unavoidable, as is the lonliness. If not for people feigning interest in me while actually looking for an apartment to use, I do not know what I would do for company.
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Author: Harvard Educated Hooker in Hawaii

Caroleena is the ivy league educated ex Honolulu streetwalker an intimate view of addiction fueled prostitution and its ripple effects.

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